Its hard to say good bye, but it's harder when you were not given the chance to say good bye...

A few days ago, i wrote a post about me missing my childhood friends in my blog "KAPE AT YOSI" Barkada, Samahan... nasaan na kaya sila?, how i miss them and reminisce the good old days, when we were younger, with no worries, just a care free day under the sun.

I learned the "BAHALA NA" attitude from them, just act now, think later... and we were always in trouble for that, but we enjoyed it, loved it and learned from it, but after ten years, heard nothing from them.

Benjie was the muscle of the group, short tempered and always in trouble, he loves track and field, always on the run, and we always tease him about it, so he could run fast when in trouble, but he got lots of medals, awards and trophies for running.

Franklin was like the father of the group, always preaching about almost everything we should and should not do, he was like an spiritual adviser and we actually tease him Father Franklin.

I was the mind, I do the school assignments, and i practically teach them the difference of a plus and minus. We have lots of fun and i miss them terribly.

I had been in other circle of friends but the friendship i had with Benjie, and Franklin was the best and i will always cherish the memories of it.

I asked my brother to search for their families and ask their where about, he said he had a hard time searching for their families but got a devastating news about Franklin.

Franklin passed away after an acute appendicitis, he said the family did not have enough money for the operation and that caused him his life. He was buried just two months ago.

I was very very mad, very furious, why didn't he asked for help? Why didn't he searched for us?

I should have searched for them a bit earlier and he should have been spared. Benjie on the other hand is in Amsterdam. I was lucky to get him over the phone and he was very happy, but very furious when i broke the news of Franklin's death, we cried about it over the phone.

I am still teary eyed as i am typing this post and the realization that the three musketeers will never be again complete.

I have lots of regrets but cant do anything about it now. Benjie will be coming home soon and we are planing a reunion, but the reunion will never be the same without Franklin....

I have so many stories to share with them but as of now, I can only say Good Bye best friend, hope to see you soon...