Another year gone and wasted,
yet another year is at hand
another piece of my history
is about to come end...

Its fun to look back and retell the tales,
of the pain, tears and misery that's too much to handle
but its amazing i made it through
and collected trophies and awards as i make it through...

Another year is coming and unfolds itself
after all the pain and misery, will i do it again?
fight my way and collect my prize?
and stand up proud and retell the tales once more?

I cried and sweat blood along the way
but the fulfillment of my dreams is enough to forget them
and the joy in my heart drives me to want more
and make another tale, that i could share to all...

Life could be sometimes full of pain,
but after all the hurt you need to stand up and make a step again
for if you let the pain rule your life
you will never be happy, nor make a smile...

open your eyes, open your mind
it isn't easy but it would help you a lot
open your eyes that you may see
and open your mind to understand...

...Life is full of tricks, threat, and treat....

Why do you have to say I am sorry,
after breaking somebody's heart?
Are you tying to ease the pain,
or are you tying to hide the guilt in your heart?

Why do you have to say I am sorry,
and tell her more lies?
You can just walk away,
and never ever look back!

You didn't mean to hurt her,
I suppose, all was just an accident!
you love her, surely!
You didn't want to make her cry.

You fall out of love
that's not her fault,
you made her think you love her
that's the problem after all..

"A part of you has grown in me. And so
you see, it's you and me together
forever and never apart, maybe in a
distance, but never in our hearts."

"Falling in love with someone isn't
always going to be easy... Anger...
tears... laughter.. And when you still want
to be together despite it all. That's
when you truly love one another. I'm sure
of it."

"A year, ten years from now, I'll
remember this; not why, only that we
were here like this, together."

“Two lives, two hearts joined together
in friendship united forever in love.”

“Coming together is a beginning.
Keeping together is a progress. Working
together is a success.”

have you ever loved and lost?
and cried over the pain of losing?
have you ever dreamed and failed?
and regret the things your missing?

sometimes the world is unfair!
that's the truth you want to share!
sometimes the world is unjust!
and you couldn't mend a broken heart!

do you really have to cry?
over a spilled bottle of wine?
why don't you just get another one?
and have a party and some fun?

whats the use of remembering!
when it makes you dig your grave!
why don't you just forget!
and live your life to the fullest!

when i was a bit younger
i made me a simple list
qualities i love and don't
of the persons i met

i made me a list of things
i will look for a partner
of the woman i will live with
forever and ever

but as i grow older
every minute of the day
the list i made for me
is starting to fade away

i said i will love someone
with the touch of class and elegance
until i met someone
bitchy witch full of arrogance

i know i hated it
but i cant refuse to look
that witch and arrogant being
starting to fill my world

i love you, i love you, that is all i have to say
i love you, i love you, i will say it everyday
i love you, i love you, i will never be tired
i love you, i love you, though your bitchy and arrogant

Families are created out of love
And live within the cup of love's large hands.
No momentary pain can love remove
Or taint the trust of one who understands.

We live at times at odds with those who love us,
Colliding in our anger like great waves,
Refusing to have anyone above us
Nor willing to give up what passion craves.

But anger is a storm we know will pass,
And freedom is the nature of the will.
We run like wild horses through the grass
Yet know we are constrained by hunger still.

Sometimes, obsessed with losses and with gains,
We turn towards home and find that love remains.

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This year the theme is

“Filipinos Abroad – Hope of the Nation, Gift to the World”.

From May to October 2009 any Filipino blogger can nominate or be nominated except for last year’s top 10 PEBA awardees. Guidelines are available from its official blogsite (click here). By December 2009 winners will be announced in a public event in the Philippines whose details are still being prepared and ironed out. Sponsors, supporters and volunteers are very much welcome to make this endeavor a success.

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Its hard to say good bye, but it's harder when you were not given the chance to say good bye...

A few days ago, i wrote a post about me missing my childhood friends in my blog "KAPE AT YOSI" Barkada, Samahan... nasaan na kaya sila?, how i miss them and reminisce the good old days, when we were younger, with no worries, just a care free day under the sun.

I learned the "BAHALA NA" attitude from them, just act now, think later... and we were always in trouble for that, but we enjoyed it, loved it and learned from it, but after ten years, heard nothing from them.

Benjie was the muscle of the group, short tempered and always in trouble, he loves track and field, always on the run, and we always tease him about it, so he could run fast when in trouble, but he got lots of medals, awards and trophies for running.

Franklin was like the father of the group, always preaching about almost everything we should and should not do, he was like an spiritual adviser and we actually tease him Father Franklin.

I was the mind, I do the school assignments, and i practically teach them the difference of a plus and minus. We have lots of fun and i miss them terribly.

I had been in other circle of friends but the friendship i had with Benjie, and Franklin was the best and i will always cherish the memories of it.

I asked my brother to search for their families and ask their where about, he said he had a hard time searching for their families but got a devastating news about Franklin.

Franklin passed away after an acute appendicitis, he said the family did not have enough money for the operation and that caused him his life. He was buried just two months ago.

I was very very mad, very furious, why didn't he asked for help? Why didn't he searched for us?

I should have searched for them a bit earlier and he should have been spared. Benjie on the other hand is in Amsterdam. I was lucky to get him over the phone and he was very happy, but very furious when i broke the news of Franklin's death, we cried about it over the phone.

I am still teary eyed as i am typing this post and the realization that the three musketeers will never be again complete.

I have lots of regrets but cant do anything about it now. Benjie will be coming home soon and we are planing a reunion, but the reunion will never be the same without Franklin....

I have so many stories to share with them but as of now, I can only say Good Bye best friend, hope to see you soon...

"There's a storm coming. . . are you prepared?"

I had been too much preoccupied with my two other blogs that i almost forgot i still have one more to feed, love, and care.

Blogging is like taking care of your own offspring, though i still don't have one, I've seen how my parents nurtured me to be the man i am now, and i am thankful.

I had been irresponsible that i forgot my very first born blog "COFFEE BREAK" and turned my eyes to my second blog "KAPE AT YOSI" and the youngest "ANG ALAMAT".

These are three different blogs that features me in a very different level of understanding. "COFFEE BREAK" showcases me as a mature individual searching for a much deeper purpose, searching for the true meaning of life, and that could be sometimes boring and very hard to tackle.

"KAPE AT YOSI" is more like the lighter side of me, here i could pour out my tantrums, post some senseless and slightly altered view of the things i see, hear and feel. Here i am a free man and without the responsibility and burden brought about by the coat and tie.

"ANG ALAMAT" brings out the inner child hidden and forgotten through time, as we grow old responsibility starts to bring its toll and make us forget that we were once a child, the need to be in a fantasy realm, the stories told and retold by our grandparents as we cuddle in their arms, our heroes, and the need to be in our own dream world as king and conquerors.

Sometimes life could be harsh and we forget we only live once, we take life too seriously and forget we also need to relax, live and not only exist. I am not perfect, but i am trying to balance my existence and leave my mark in all that i do, life is too short, if you don't start now, when?